Oh our bains...One thng that we have to realize is that our thoughts, which originate within our brains can create for us a beautiful life or a horrible, self-destructive one, depending on how we act on these thoughts.. For example, every day I want somethng sweet, irregardless of how full my tummy is. I mean, I can be bursting at the seams and I still desire M&M's and chips. What's that insanty about??? Well, I have hardwired my brain to produce desires for sweets, especially after each meal. I've been eatng eating sweets and chips after each meal and in the evenings for over 55 years. I grew up abused and so food,was the only true enjoyment that I had. Everything else in my life was so horrible, I loved mealtimes, unless i was being punished for some invented crazyiness. So through the years, even after I came out of the abusive home,  there was a daily demand placed on me through my thoughts to have sweets and chips as a reward for making it through the day, every day.
All these many years and pounds later, I finally am beginning to have a breakthrough in the area of controlling my thoughts. Why? Because my back is pushed to the wall. The only way for me to be discharged from this Care Centre is for me to have a total knee replacement on my left knee. Before the knee replacement can be scheduled, I have to lose 35 pounds. Well, I've done some weight loss and bingo, two weeks ago I gained 3 pounds! Why? Because of the same self-sabotaging thoughts  that have been my downfall for the last 55+ years. These same friendly (lol) thoughts have helped my beautiful figure to gain so much, that I'm 100 pounds overweiigt and my BMI is 49.0.

I have cried, prayed, anagonized and fretted over this quandry that I find myself in to no avail. I finally stopped worring and relaxed, since the only other health problem that I have is high blood pressure, which is under control with meds. So, I cannot worry about stuff.
I started reading, first I read, "The Battlefield of the Mind" by Joyce Meyer. I tried it but, no long-term success. Then, I read several other books and finally I read "The Rational Brain" online, "Brain Over Binge" and some other cognative behavior books and articles, some of which were bible based, which started the change process within me. "Thin Within" was one. I also read some works of  Dr. Joe Dispenza.
The last book I started reading was " Desires FulFilled" by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I like to listen to Dr. Dyer,but, I have to carefully divide a lot of the things that he says and writes about. Why? Because I don't agree theologically with them. I started reading this book and  I scratched out some words and replaced them with what I thought was correct and I started learnning a lot about myself and the God whom I serve. The scriptures that Dr. Dyer used in the book, caused the Holy Spirit within me to bring even more scriptures to life within me. Scriptures that I had heard for the last 32 years began to come alive and have new meanings for me. I started to feel the love that God has for me and how all He wanted from me for all these years, is for Him to be glorified through my life. What does it mean to glorify God? To glofiy God means to take God, who a lot of people think as nothing special, someone unimportant, something not real and for a person to represent Him in such a way through that persons life, his manner of loving, thereby causes God, not the person, to appear special and elevated. Therefore God is accepted, appreciated, loved and desired in a brand new way. That's as simple as I can put it.
I have been just meditating on the Word of God and  starting to see God's answers to my prayers and His promises found in His Word, coming true as I meditate.
 Today for example, I wanted some M&M's  and chips so bad. I was craving them so bad and then, I realized that it was just a thought, just a thought, which I could let pass by and just think about something else. The thought and craving left. I got so excited, because it was one of the first times, I've had success, not acting on a thought to eat sweets and chips. Man, this initial success is the first of many more to come for me.
So what new thing will I do daily? I will let not let wrong thoughts flow freely through my mind and then fucus and act on them. I will view them and allow them to pass though, with no following action on my part, to fulfill said thought, just realize that they are only thoughts...thoughts that come and go. I'll have 50,000 of them every day.
Selah..........................